Hate When It Comes So...

I hate when it comes so! One day we are friends, next day we are not! Then you suddenly appear in my graduation photo when I don't want it telling me we're cool, but you keep spreading the dirt behind my back. And how you call it?
Please, make up your mind!
Cause I can't decide if I hate you or not...

Get Over It!

If you think you've made a mistake recognize it and get over it!
If your boyfriend/girlfriend cheated on you just forget that he/she exists and get over it.
If you had a fight with a friend apologize or walk your way and get over it.
If people say you're too ordinary stop thinking about your behavior and get over it.
If you think you've got no talent try something new and get over it.
If you have enough time to do everything you should and everything you want and then come to me and tell how awful your life is, come and look what is my life like, shut up and get over it!!

Via Internet Only

I can express how angry I am only via Internet... Otherwise I may loose friends, school, family. They don't even know what's here, inside of me, but as long as I'm in the Internet I can tell you... It's anger, anger and hatred. I'm fed up with your "How are you" questions. I'm sick, I have a terrible headache, my heart is torn as I see that you were having fun as I was in the hospital, you didn't care when my family was falling apart... You so don't care...
I can be careless too but as long as I am Human, I won't.

Apology

You know, it's funny when your apology makes situation worse. Not because you chose the wrong words to say, just because that person doesn't know how to react. And now I don't know what to expect from tomorrow. I thought I was independent from that person but I didn't realize how dependent I am...

And This Is Where...

Yesterday was such a good day! I went to our family's friends new apartment.It is not very big, just one room, but I fell in love with it. It has such a modern flavor! Mmm... not too much of the style, but the design creates a mood! And this is where the dream begins: I wanna have my own place!!

But today... Yesterday's mood disappeared completely! I went to school to the rehearsal of the show for kids. It's not too bad, I mean I love to work for kids but this... this is not a work, this is slavery! We couldn't give our creativity, our soul, our ideas to the show. "Bosses" wanted us to be like announcers from the USSR radio. Less art, less inspiration, no emotions required. So artificial! And remember, we work for KIDS, for those little creatures who need our warmness, our advices, our emotions, they won't believe us because we are too artificial! Kids don't trust on those things. I don't wanna ruin their mood, I don't wanna lie to them! And I definitely don't wanna suck. This is my last September show, my last year at school. Don't wanna be a slave...

Just visited Children's Hospital in Boston. Good reminder to appreciate life's value. Those kids have such incredible spirits in the face of illness. I'm inspired.
                                                                      (c) Adam Lambert


When I see such posts I'm sure that this world still has the soul.

The one who made me believe again

It was a total surprise to me that whole evening I was watching blog of one person! I knew he is talented but I didn't even expect that he can also write this way! I laughed, I was thoughtful, I almost cried!! Usually I just take a short look on his posts but tonight something made me read all of them even if I read those already. It's not really weird, that's actually bizarre! I even had to rewrite a page of his quotations. And you know what? I loved it!
I know he probably doesn't remember me...who am I lying to? He doesn't know me personally but today it felt like he's the closest friend of mine who knows me since the early childhood so he's telling me my thoughts which lie somewhere deep in my mind.
And I know one more thing. If you knew who is this person I'm talking about, you'd laugh to my face. But I don't care. He made me believe in my powers again and that is the most wonderful thing about this evening.